Over.

It’s almost June 2013 and I’m finally back here after blogging in secret places. Well, many things have happened. I’ve lost a family member. I’m single. I managed to get a B for GBE despite studying for it on the day of the exam #achievementunlocked. I am enlisting in a few days’ time. All these, and it isn’t even half a year yet.

I graduated last Friday. Truth be told, the ceremony is balls. The phototaking after that is the actual graduation ceremony. I took photos with the important people in my life (If I missed you out, oops. :D)

I hate waiting, but somehow I do that a lot in my life, on purpose or helplessly.

Work is ending really soon and then I will do everything I want to do before I enlist. Hopefully, I can find people to go with me.

Tata, my fingers are tired from the lack of typing. I’m sleepy too.

20.

This is for myself.

This year was such a wild ride. I finished year 2 in Poly. I went to Finland for internship. I had such a blast there. I learnt so much about the little things in life there. I learnt how to cook. I learnt how to do laundry (next time, don’t use softener for 6 months). I learnt to appreciate the quiet times I had there. I learnt about different cultures, different kinds of food, different kinds of people. I started loving croissants. I love croissants. I made friends there. I learnt a little bit of Finnish there. Kiitos! I read a lot. I strolled a lot. I experienced snow the first time. I experienced winter, spring, summer and a little of autumn there. Spring and summer felt like aircon temperature. I miss the place so damn much. I travelled with friends for the first time of my life. They are awesome people.

I came back, with a little reluctance and a lot of sadness. I got through the first term of school, and it felt as though I had never left. Now, I have another 7 weeks left of school, then exams and I’m officially done. Hmmm. Uncertainty beckons and I’m not sure whether I like it. You’re definitely leaving too, though I don’t know when and to where. Honestly, I don’t know what to do, but the right thing for me to do is to support you, right? Oh well, it is time to be a grown up. Speaking of growing up, I will be 21 next year. Note to self : read this before my birthday and remind yourself, YOU DO NOT WANT A PARTY. Trust me future KK, past KK knows what he is saying.

Okay, I have a lot more thoughts, but they are not meant for aliens, so bye.

Hugeass Mayan trolling, and hugeass post.

Hi.

As per mainstream people do, I’ll have a end-of-the-year post. Starting it off with the fact that the Mayans trolled us big time. They made us believe that projects and exams are temporary. Sigh. Not gonna use names here, you know who you are.

To the clique, we be awesome. Though it has only been over a year since we got together, it feels like we have been old friends. More overseas trips please. Oh and also, the old man reminded me of the restaurant that it all started, and I think we should go back there again soon. We should make it a tradition, even though the food there isn’t fantastic.

To the soon-to-be-21-but-acts-like-12 person, we’ve known each other for nearly 8 years, since sec one when soonwillmelt introduced us. 2 years since that, we became classmates. And now, you’ve become one of the people I never want to lose in my life. Honest advice, don’t worry about life, life will be nice to you. If life throw you lemons, use a squash racket and smash it right back. If people (other than us) are mean to you, tell me and I’ll tell you how ugly and stupid they are. That’s how I roll.

To the one with an incredibly nice family, and also has a terrible fate lying in front of you in 8 years’ time. Yes, 8 years also, 4 years as classmates, had girlfriends who shared the same birthday (don’t ask me how I remember, I just do), yadayada. Well, we wouldn’t be this close if it wasn’t the person above who suggested that you joined us that day. Drink more milk, you’ll need it to survive more overseas trips. Stop poking the monster, the monster will destroy you. I’m on the monster’s side simply because it’s funnier.

To the used-to-be-confused-but-now-happy monster, remember how your slipper broke? Still can’t forget your face then. Your morning blues face is also unforgettable. Well, from quiet tuition classmates to confidante now, it feels awesome that your disturbing stare has no effect on me and the old man. It is also hilarious whenever the one above cannot tank your disturbing stare. Be happy, and   I’m not saying that any one of us wants it to happen, but if something bad happens between both of you, we will always be here. That’s what friends are for, especially one that lives literally 5 minutes from your house.

To the old man trapped in the body of a boy, once again, 8 years, 4 years classmates, 2 years gambling partner, PSP partner, back-of-the-class gang etc. Thankful for your presence, worldly advice (befitting of a wise old man), your birthday cards over the years, running partner, stopping me from spending too much too. Well, the monster failed to get your secrets out, but this is a reminder to her that you have secrets, despite the fact that you said you didn’t. I exposed you, deal with it.

To you, we aren’t speaking any more. Be happy.

To you, be happy with life too.

To trollberry/crazyberry/lazyberry/slowberry/failberry/awesomeberry/many more names and I am too lazy to type, thank you for being there when I was at Finland and struggling with stuff. Thanks for the awesome cake ( I seriously am willing to pay for cake). Thanks for the timely advice at times. Don’t bottle stuff up, it’ll kill you. Share them with your “le awesome clique”.  When you go Manchester next year, I want stuff from the only football team there. The blue one is just a lie, don’t worry about it.

To the one who has boy trouble everytime we meet, love you lots lots. Be happy with the current one, seriously. If you ever read this, go out before you go back to becoming a mountain hermit at the Alps (I think so, right?)

To the mum. I miss talking to you in Finland (YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN). I miss Finland. I miss Marchy too. I miss kidnapping Marchy (OK KIDDING). I want to sing. I want the teddy bear from the teddy cafe. I want to eat awesome croissants.

To le wild shiny girl. I miss your dogs. I want to game at your place more. I want to play with your dogs. I miss the 3 of us hanging out in Finland. I want guitar lessons. Derp. Stop cry-laughing, it’s too much for me to handle. You’re the master of lame, not me.

To marathon meh, do take care of yourself, I’m constantly worried about you. I want boardgame night. Squash also. We haven’t meet for so long already. I want supper too.

To the little girl in my life, love you yooooooo~ Ok no more deliberate typos. Go wherever you have to, I’m not someone who would ground you or deprive you from your goals. Before you go though (yes you said it won’t be next year, but who knows), I want Disney movie marathon, pancakes, sushi buffet, photospam, Karaoke (yes I want that), your cooking, xoxos. And yes, our new year resolution for each other kicks in once it hits 12am 1/1/2013, despite how much I want to argue with it. Love you most.

To the people I miss out here, I’m sorry. It’s just a sign that we should meet up really soon. (:

2013 will be a great year. It’ll be a year of beginnings and endings. Stick with your resolutions, and when life is mean to anyone of you, go all destroyer mode on it. After all, we survived the end of the world, what else can bring us down?

 

With a toe pinch.

First overseas trip with the clique was really fun. The resort is lacklustre (I have high standards I guess), but the company is simply world-class. World-class laughter, world-class jokes and puns, world-class torture sessions as well.

Gonna make this short and sweet, since I am going to post a end-of-the-world-and-year post. In summary, I was a chick magnet, allof the bunnies with red ears and eyes are rude, brown bunny with black eyes be adorbz, old tigers make me sad, waking up to decorate a hotel room is a first for me, Malaysian photographers at attractions are a huge pain in the ass, having a black face when elephants and photographers with snakes approached me made it a lot easier to reject them and avoid mucus, the announcer there pronounced Gentlemen as Jenlemen, the food is so-so, being in the quiet cab makes it a lot easier to read and sleep, koala mask be hilarious and never disturb the monster when she isn’t relieved. Two rights doesn’t make a left either. Math questions in the morning can even stump the old man. Diamonds are too much trouble for me. Getting pinched with toes (which reminds him of his mum) in the morning is the funniest thing to me.

OKAY DONE. MOVING ON.

Perks of having a wonderful girlfriend.

Hi.

So I had a belated birthday celebration with the girl on Wednesday.

She made me feel super under-dressed and inadequate by bringing me to a high class restaurant at Central, called Zero Zero. The prices are fine for a 6 course lunch (yes 6 courses) but the atmosphere feels intimidating. Oh well, at least the food is awesome.

She got me a movie poster from Perks Of Being A Wallflower, which made Michelle really jelly belly, a laptop bag and awesome bread from Tiongbahru Bakery.

Okay I am too lazy to elaborate. She’s awesome, deal with it.

Infinities

Hi people, I’m finally back from a long first term of school and exam week.

School feels a lot faster than it used to be. Maybe it is like this because we are in our last semester in school. Still, 7 weeks just flew by like that. The projects are a lot more interesting than it used to be. Another few more weeks to go, and we’ll be graduating. The thought of that kind of reminds me of how time flies.

So, it was my belated birthday celebration with the clique yesterday. I tried desperately to guess their plans, but in the end I sort of just went with it. They brought me to the Maritime Experiential Museum + Aquarium and then to watch the Song Of The Sea show at Siloso (?) Beach. It was a pleasant surprise, I’ve always enjoyed history stuff and I have never been to such a huge aquarium. I wanted to play with the board game about the different explorers but the rest didn’t want to 😦 ohwells~ I particularly enjoyed the butterfly fish enclosure, there was a pair of fish that just kept lapping around the circular enclosure. The huge enclosure with all the manta rays (fashionistas, Junhao and Goiling after each other etc) and the Luohan fish that is super chill (according to Junhao) was also quite the sight to behold. My eyes got quite tired after awhile due to chasing the fish around with my eyes and the different views available, but it was really fun to go to the Aquarium. What’s even more special about it is the fact that I told berry that I wanted to go just recently, and they brought me there! 😀 hehheh. Oh speaking of berry, I saw Jianing there~ hehheh~ Went with the clique to Astons for dinner. The clique got me a REALLY nice bag for my birthday and I just finished “exploring” the bag and discovered the numerous purposes for all the compartments 😀 They also made me a really nice card for my wall (exactly what I wanted). I really am excited for our overseas trip, let’s just hope that someone wakes Gongyi in the middle of the night and I’ll laugh my ass off. (sorry bro :D)

Thanks a lot guys, I know my birthday list is limited but I really have no idea what I want 😀 No pictures here, I’m lazy.

I can’t wait to meet up with the awesome people in my life during the holidays. Especially Sera. (:

All In Time

It’s not even been a month since I returned to Singapore and I miss Finland already.

After coming back, there is this realisation that time has stopped for the Singapore version of me while the rest of the world has moved on. It’s like having to get used to the life here even though I was only away for 6 months. It is weird, getting culture shock from my own country. In Finland, it was easier to pretend that things were all okay, since I was away from it all. Being back kind of forces me to face everything.

I can proudly say that, “I am not okay.”

I never said that I loved the rain, but when it rains I rejoice and enjoy every droplet that falls on me. 

Bunch of Pansies/P-ssies.

No, this post isn’t about a group of people. I rarely do this, but this issue somehow evoked a lot of emotions in me, so I shall blog about it.

Headline of the night : Abolishing of PSLE.

Without PSLE, we are not nurturing potential leaders of tomorrow (incidentally, Polyforum’s topic this year), but we are allowing potential pansies to become actual pansies and faint at the sight of a 49/100 test grade, a mere “Pass” for Oral exams or even a Bronze for NAPFA. Okay, the last one was bad, but I think you get my point.

Saying PSLE is stressful is akin to saying that growing up in Singapore is like ABC. From a 20-year old, I can assure you, growing up in Singapore involves all 26 letters from the alphabet, and maybe some Greek letters as well. We survived PSLE, “O” levels and for some of us, “A” levels. Some of my friends even chose to take SATs. Sure, we do whine about it being hard, but we don’t run away from home because of exam stress. We eat like pigs (I do this), study like nerds (I did that only once) and use other methods to  relieve our exam stress, i.e. music, gaming, sports, 9gag till the wee hours of the morning. Now, one kid ran away from home, and people talk about abolishing a nation-wide exam? When I was younger and complained about studying, my mum would just tell me to shut up and continue.

If PSLE is actually abolished, how would the pansies choose their secondary schools? Based on distance? People will all move to Bishan, Orchard and Bukit Timah. Based on luck? The streams (Special/Express/Normal) will have no meaning. Have a 10 year education at the same school? That’ll be protecting them pansies until they can choose between JC and Poly and both institutions are way more stressful than secondary school, I know this because I spent time in both.

This is totally depressing, but in Singapore, we are all judged when we go for our first interview. Judged according to how we dress, what schools we attended, what grades we obtained, what activities we participated in our schools etc. Rather than “protecting” the children from stress, we should expose them to stress as early as possible. Yes, stress will break people, but without stress, we will never find out how much potential the children might have.

Of course, all of these coming from a 20-year old might make little sense to the parents who have children taking the PSLE this year or next year. To you dear creators of life, I suggest telling your kids to man up. If you protect them, you’ll never find out whether your “宝贝” is actually a diamond in the rough, or just a common pebble.

If any parents feel offended reading this, read my title to find out what I have to say to you. Abolishing PSLE, I say “plulup” to that.

*edit*

If PSLE really is abolished, I hope the relevant authorities implement Battle Royale or The Hunger Games. It’ll be a blast seeing kids fight it out.

Uncertainties.

This is my first week back in Singapore and I am already having mixed feelings. I am happy being back because of the people who are here, but some things still make me wish that I am still in Finland.

It has been an eventful week, meeting up with people that I have not seen in months. Having plans for the coming week is really exciting too.

The haze is killing my delicate throat, it has not been irritated for a long time and suddenly, there be haze. Meh.

Unpredictable

In 7 days, I will probably be sleeping in my Singapore room. I wasn’t really excited to go home, but now I am since there are a lot more to look forward to. Many outings & dates, learning how to cook Mum’s dishes, decorating my room, herping and derping around, suntanning at the beach, om nom nom adventures. There is just so much for me to do.  After being bored for the better half of the week, I just have another 5 days to go till 1.5 months of holiday, though technically my holidays started on March 😀

Life has its own magic. The person whom you were too shy to talk to when you were young, can be someone really close now. The good friend that you had ages ago, you might not even talk to him now. You can have a friend that you don’t speak to for ages and when you do talk after a long time, it is as though time has stopped between the last conversation and now. I am thankful for all the close friends I have now. To those I have stopped talking to, I thank you for being a part of my life in the past.

I always have these epiphanies right before I want to go shower. Weird brain is weird.

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